Richymoon
Inside Horizons

This may seam a bit of a long winded explanation of something I’ve been thinking about, but recently I’ve been studying black holes and string theory and found a comparison, The Mind.

A black hole is a region of spacetime from which nothing, not even light, can escape. The theory of general relativity predicts that a sufficiently compact mass will deform spacetime to form a black hole. Around a black hole there is a mathematically defined surface called an event horizon that marks the point of no return. It is called “black” because it absorbs all the light that hits the horizon, reflecting nothing, just like a perfect black body in thermodynamics. There are a few “singularities” (black hole joke) that in principle may appear things of fiction. I’ll start with these ideas.

To an observer on the outside of the black hole observing a person falling into the black hole he/she would never actually see them disappear, the appearance of that person falling into it would be to the observer as to see him slow down and become flattened and stretched against the black holes horizon, but never ever ever will it look as tho they have fallen inside. 

Try to imagine a fly landing on a ballon, as you watch, the fly gets flatter and flatter spreading out over the skin of the ballon, but never looking as tho it gets pulled inside.

But to the person falling in or to the fly, he/she would not even know they had passed this horizon of no return. 

Yes, there are many many details here that are not true in statement. A person would never be able to survive this they would be traveling at close to speed of light density and temperature would kill them way outside the black hole, but to a photon who could “observe” as we do this is what he could state as true observation as to a photon it would not be affected as humans would be. 

Unfortunately for the photon or lets go back to using a person they have passed a point thats known as the even horizon a place where gravitational force exceeds a field line called the swatch shield radius. Things get complicated but the fate of the person is doomed no matter what he does he now only has one destination called the  gravitational singularity. 

There are many other factors that go into making a black hole, but i only want to try to use these major ones as an analogous for our own minds. 

So what would a super massive black hole and our minds have in common? 

When you talk in terms of time manipulation (encoded time memories) and entropy  I’ve started to see them as very similar things.

To understand what i mean first you must know what entropy is. This alone is a massive subject tied in with the laws of thermodynamics but on the most basic level it simply describes energy within a system. (the universe)

If we use the idea of “bits” of data 1’s or 0’s yes or no answers. 2 possibilities, and we have small boxes to place them in. (full or empty) Entropy put simply is how we monitor this energy (data) in a system. The principle started in the steam engine business when calculating engine pressures, but today we apply it to any system of energy on any scale.

When a person falls into a black hole there “bits” of energy become absorbed into the black holes system, actually also resulting in the mass of the black hole becoming bigger which in turn makes the radial horizon bigger.

With more mass and bigger horizons the black hole becomes stronger in attraction. What happens to this data is to messy to state fully here, but its safe to say at least that this information is never just lost. It can not disappear anyplace it will be locked inside that system until such a time where a black hole will evaporate, eventually radiating this data back outside of its system.

If your still following my rambles well done. 

So what do we have here….?

Black Hole

Its a system in space time that self propagates the consumption of bits (information)Holds them in a non physical place what i mean by this is some strange things happen there, virtual particles, quantum fluctuation, vacuum field energy all sorts in multiple dimensions encoding new information inside other information. The more information it has the bigger its horizon.

No one can see inside this place from the outside, they could only see the outer layer like the ballon, and to someone on the inside no matter what they do they can never escape, never send a message outside of the horizon.

Right so what the hell has this got to do with our minds right????

In your own minds ask the question, could i say the following to be true for mind.

A Mind.

Its a system in space time that self propagates the consumption of bits (information)Holds them in a non physical place what i mean by this is some strange things happen there, virtual particles, quantum fluctuation, vacuum field energy all sorts in multiple dimensions encoding new information inside other information. The more information it has the bigger its horizon.

Do you agree i could use this statement again for Mind? 

To me the idea of our brains storing information as a computer does is fundamentally wrong. A 100gb hard drive will always be a 100gb hard drive. Putting the entire works of Einstein on it would fit easily but yet the information does not self propagate by expanding. Our minds take in information and by doing so expands ourselves expands to new before unreachable places, or paths.

Our continuous stream of moments in time being flattened into our memory of existence our shell that defines our boundaries.

The human mind is a masterpiece of organization and organizing ability.  Everything gets sorted into the appropriate cubby holes — affectionately known asschemas — the epitome of increasing order.  The human mind, of course, operates on energy, but the reliance on food intake as the sole energy source constitutes a highly questionable assumption.  If in addition we are living in a Connective Universe, Consciousness may be tapping into the Zero-Point Energy, or using Hyperdimensional Physics to advantage.  

Perhaps now is the time for physics to include consciousness in the equation. ?

So the life of a mind sucking in energy to expand its own horizons. The photons the sound waves the breakfast you ate this morning there 1”s and 0”s energy you absorb powering the body in turn powering the mind in turn powering body. Self perpetuating system in space time encoding information.

If string theory is correct another thing to realize is that what makes a black hole and what makes you are one and the same thing. Think of it like DNA all DNA is made up of a combination of 4 different proteins, it simply depend what order you place them and out pops a human or out pops a dog. There is no difference in the stuff there made of only the order in which they join.

So fundamentally the stuff that makes our DNA is made of the same string energy that a black hole is just on a different scaling. Water can make an ocean or a rain drop both massively different in scale but regardless you would never see any water run up hill. It has a natural ability and state regardless of scale. 

We share another property with a black hole in my mind.

At first a black hole may seam powerful almost infinite power. nothing with mass can ever escape its grip. But this is not quite true. There is an effect called Hawking radiation that is due to quantum effects. Hawking radiation allows black holes to lose mass and energy, black holes that lose more matter than they gain through other means are expected to dissipate, shrink, and ultimately vanish.

Unfortunately we also share this process, basically by the process of being alive we constantly emit energy or go back to entropy and think data or simply 1s and 0s and eventually we give off more than we can recapture and we die. 

But whats important to remember is whats left has always been there way before you existed. Where our conciseness goes who knows? that is a question to ask inside your own horizon. But physically for sure your energy goes back into the system 1’s and 0’s infinite possibly your energy move on to be available to be used and captured by new horizons.

When a black hole has died and its amazing force has long diminished what else do you see? you see nothing…no longer can you look and see what once was in its full glory but you will see something….you will see stars shining and asteroids, nebula and expanding galaxies that all once felt the power of the black hole but now its gone and space is still. There futures, paths and horizons all moving but only on obits or paths that was once determined by the hole or further more are now made of what was once trapped away.

Is life is not simply the possibility to expand our horizons to take what we need but always knowing it will eventually do us no good and all. All will be lost. But when we leave we hope to create a phantom hole in others horizons.

Be diligent on seeing that the future exists where we are stood right now, not only in your futures minds eye. 

Things orbit past us daily if we absorb to much to quickly we believe to be strong but really we are making ourself weaker but if we absorb nothing our horizons are small. We cant help absorb its our nature but to live a good long strong life we must only absorb reality as this expands us. But to create fields so junk will pass us, junk will only shorten our potential system. As the more junk the more extra radiation we have to burn to cope with the load.

So to me i think we are all black holes, in our nature to absorb but with not enough skill at first to differentiate what it is we do absorb in order for best balance of absorption horizon and life. 

But don’t forget you radiate also! All of the time that radiation energy goes into others horizons becomes there reality. 

So its all very simple to me radiate what you need yourself. 

Love and compassion, so at least the energy of our lives evaporating will eventually be trapped inside other horizons as an essential part and not just junk that will end up killing them.

Richy Moon

p.s

Get the balance wrong, try to hold on to everything not only truth and your mind will become the most destructive force in the world.

Thanks to @idephis

Wow…where to start this chapter! 

 

Ive just been inspired to get back to my random writings by someone who i have never met on twitter called @idephis so whatever ends up here i give thanks to her for now im typing onto the empty page and trying to work out how to get this story thats unfolding out in some way. 

Ive not really wrote a lot over the last 12 months and at first i really didn’t know why? i have always loved to keep notes on whats been going on ect.. and normally used it to vent frustration normally, or use it to work out a conclusion, but today i feel is not either of those for the first time.

Today i simply just want to record the reason why this lull in anger and questioning has arisen, as even tho before it was not clear… now i feel i truly know the reason why. 

It is said we all have a path in life, i believe that this is 100% true but i also think that if along it at any point we decide not to truly pay attention and understand what it is thats really happening we will soon be kicked very far from our path and then its ultimate destination becomes a myth.

If you read over my writings on here from over the last few years i think you would agree in the fact that i was always trying to make concrete foundation and observation to who i thought i was in the world and how i thought best to think about it as so not to get caught by its traps. I read something the other day about how moonlight causes such beauty and interest as it reflects on the surface of dark water and this is where i think i have spent most of my time in questioning, in the ripples of waves that gets hit by moonlight. But the sentence went onto say how the beam of light does not stop there… it penetrates deep under the surface of this rippling swan lake scenario and finds true reality deep underneath.

After many chapters in my life, the one of which i look back on and say “thats it!” thats the moment i lost faith in humanity…thats the moment i experienced suffering. Myself and a good friend opened a recoding studio in which i had heavily invested with no government support (i did try for years but was never applicable… check this… i was even told the only way i could get a prince of wales start up grant was if i registered as unemployed for 6 months and clam dole!) I was fresh and keen straight out of owning a smaller business i sold on successfully but no… and nothing… But that is another story entirely .

 

The studio was very successful with many major artists / BBC clients using it in looking back it was amazing. I was 22.

The local council had a music youth project which we started to house at the studio, The project was awesome we worked with kids from many walks of life unfortunately not from very fortunate ones themselves, and it was hard work but 12 months later we had a team of confident excited successful polite and understanding kids that and had something they did not have when we met them enthusiasm !….

This was all destroyed…

I cant prove i was forced out but it was a council owed building i paid massive rent for!! They turned around and lumped a bill on my for 20K to upgrade the fire alarms to there “new” standard.

(Baring in mind when i took the building on it was a complete wreck and had nothing inside was ripped bare ridiculously dangerous but they allowed my planed work with no question)

Investing serious money just in fitting it out, then 12 month later to be told its my responsibility to upgrade fire alarms (strip lighting in floors, rip out the studio and start again was there basic proposal) Or…… i can not trade anymore.

I must note the two girls running the music project were both complete stars who tried there very best to help me get through it all, but in the end it was no good, even tho there was so many good hearted people who understood at the end of the day it was higher council policies in place.

I begged the council to see the good we had done ourselves, i asked for funding but was told no, or not enough time scale for funding process!!! I even in the end offered as only to keep the music project housed to find another loan and meet them half way on cost. They just said no it was my responsibility . I could not raise it only being in business for not a long time already with loans ect. I had to get out the music project died i was left in massive debt with banks the kids were back on the street so to speak.. doing nothing it also housed 3 rehearsal rooms catering for at least a 100 local bands many young. all closed.

At the time i was like a said earlier (refections on the surface of the water) was just being thrown about by jargon i knew nothing of and red tape crap from chief executive councillors to a 22 year old sound engineer… all keeping me away from the depth of what was happening. 

I may be wrong and i cant prove it but 6 months after i was gone a small music project run by a councillor who was renowned for not doing anything with her project pre this event for kids whatsoever was awarded £500,000 which i can tell you 6/7 years later did nothing for anyone, the kids aint kids anymore i still have contact with a few. But lets just say a lot of things could have been different for them today in my eyes. If im wrong then i beg for forgiveness but still to this day it made no sense only in the way that without my presence they was allowed the money from a grant as there was no competition for them to compete with. (greed = suffering) 

Am i wrong in smelling a fish??

So ok i started this by saying im not writing about anger or questioning today, and im really not but this experience changed me. I wont lie it caused me pain in seeing my dream collapse studio wise and seeing kids not understand why. As for the councilors all i hoped was Karma gets them at some point but now i would prefer that they realize and then go on to make a positive change in the future.

When i look back on these times i had no idea how many lessons of reality was being presented to me. I simply turned this confusion it to a deep anger that seamed to work its way to the top years later. I did not understand the world i lived in anymore. Up until then common ignorance for reality surrounded me, the idea of success being the goal or failure being punishment.   So this looked like a paradox of punishment for being successful (This could not be..) 

To be fair what happened directly after this was not any profound conclusions i simply got on with getting back to my music and enjoying the life i had with my friends whilst also avoiding bank statements as on top the bank did not class this as a reason to allow me to hold off my repayments! So debt was flying up also, but i was 23 i had better things to care about during my anger.

Eventually a couple years later i got a nice studio setup ironically enough in the same building i opened and sold the first small setup i opened when straight out of uni.

But then other factors which ive written about before came into play but as i see it now was just massive confusion in my identity resulting in me being told i was Bipolar (I’m not and never was)

Right now you know all that i guess i can get on writing about what it is i wanted to.

Almost three years ago I was traveling in Thailand where i become increasingly interested in looking into Buddhism. I had visited some temples ect as part of the standard backpackers destinations day one kho san road completely out of our minds drinking buckets the next morning walking around the reclining Buddha in Bangkok whilst suffering the worst 30 degree changeover imaginable…but we all had to start someplace :) I started to read up about its philosophy months later which i found hard to stay focused as i always seamed to have a more important book to read first but slowly started to understand…. (i lied….. i remembered what it is Buddha said and what his main teaching were about) 

At this time i was now in the process of trying to move my studio and also possibly buy a house in thailand had me ex girlfriend in my life again… again i now see this as the waves i was lost in not knowing the real truth was so close to me.

I have never been taught about meditation properly, Only I had a particular experience. I was staying in Thailand last year and always feel drawn to the beauty of the many temples. But this day i visited Wat Phu Khao Noi Temple on Kho Phangan. I spent almost the whole day there with monks and in particular a trainee monk to be called Toy. I offered to help in general tasks as he was sweeping and tidying. He would not allow me to help him and instead offered me a book written mostly in Thai, but there was a section on mindful walking and the 6 stages…

Heal up, Lifting, Moving, Lowering, Touching, Pressing

Toy tried the best he could with very limited english words to simply describe taking things in and letting them go…. to simply acknowledge sensations.
After almost a full day at the temple taking photos watching others prey and monks meditate even whilst doing actions such as sweeping the floor, something made sense to me and i just continued to do this in my daily actions until now. 


The book had a few things to avoid in meditation practice and the first one was reading and writing..! so maybe thats whys its taken me so long to start this??? :) Part of a sense restraint which also included no sleeping longer than 4 hours, which i must admit im very guilty of, but..

It said Buddha said 

When you see, Just see
When you hear, Just hear 

This continued for all the senses but ending with not a real physical sense saying “When you know, Just know”


So this has been the basis of what i have tried to do in meditation, a continuation of the walking meditation in other sensations and also even tho i know there are hundreds of books available on mediation an dharma principles and as i can see now excellent web pages to find out more “descriptions of sensation” but i almost feel that i see why the book said do not read or write about it as it solidifies something that i feel can not. Same lines as a million words cant describe a sunset or even the colour red, it simply is.

I meditated in the beginning just for the fact that i found it extremely relaxing, I am a record producer / sound engineer so the task of analyzing and breaking music (vibrational energy) down into its constitute parts was already a developed skill i have.. how to hear interactions between harmonics and not the harmonic ect, i feel meditation is the same thing.

 

Ive only recently discovered that what Toy was telling me to do is called Insight Meditation, (breaking experiences down & observing there impermanence) Obviously i have read about many other forms some for concentration some for relaxation but the process i learnt there has recently in last 3 months started to induce or allow amazing experiences in myself. To the point where i find it almost impossible to use english words or analogies to really describe the sensations. So im not going to try here ill just say amazing washes of colour through me, a connection to an energy, an out of body perspective and really broken down moments where ive felt things slow but also increase in proportion eg the slower things move past the more love i can capture, which as a physicist makes perfect sense but in physics the faster things move the more mass they gain as energy and mass are the same thing so a reversed e = mc2 if you like…. the slower things move past the more love.

 

Im totally happy with not being able to describe them fully or know where i am on any path to anywhere…I can feel its right… I can see its right and as Buddha said “When you know.. Just Know” thats enough for me. Im so happy that. 

Im a keen physicist interested in quantum physics and i have seen no conflict whatsoever in one reality over the other. Buddhism and spirituality being the colour Red and Physics being is description in amazing detail, but one is pure experience undefinable and physics is the “you had to be there!” story but it will never truly make u feel what reality is.

But this is where im now hitting a problem.. until now i have not really looked into what it was i was experiencing, all i stuck to was if i don’t fully know what it is im looking for then i wont feel bad if i cant get there theory. 

I know these attainments are part of a path I’m dedicated to following one in which it is said you can reach many altered states of consciousness and insight but it seams the more i look into asking where to go next… what to break down… the more i find die hard Dharma followers and practitioners on this path who can happily describe these amazing sensations by saying today i obtained stream entry or phase 4.2e or whatever it is as a tick list and everyones like hey well done Jim! 

To me its almost dare i say it?….A slimming club :?

 

Ive posted a few questions around the place and only one person replied simply saying i must learn more terminology to describe and progress. It must also be said that this person is a renowned meditation master and the respect i have for him to reply to such a fresh student is massive and i thank him for the advice deeply. 

But also i must be true to the fact i dont want to be ticking off a list with people like weight watchers….I want real conversations about meditation and its benefits to all around me.

 

I am now a dedicated Buddhist…..one who for the first time in my life seeks no real answers, i simply wish to develop these feeling and attitude that has arisen in the current moment and always see the beautiful swan lake of life playing out constantly but also always see them for what they really are and know whats underneath supporting them. (surprisingly not a lot)

 

I know im sorry for being so cynical here i am having great experiences and turning down a online community built to support this exact thing, but i feel that the influx in Buddhism into the west has also brought along a lot of how westerners see moving forward. So i am scared that by latching on to what i have found and taking it as the only path is not right for me. It is this path that stems all the way back to the suffering i witnessed all those years back, the path that made me break free, the path that took me to thailand the path that led me to Toy the path that has led me here today writing this instead of trying to work out how far up the ladder of enlightenment i have moved to be able to say it verbally…I simply dont care.

 

So please remember but never ever believe me, find out yourself, that bit is up to you.. But whatever it is that is causing you pain break it down ‘see’ what it really is, try to understand its sensations your dealing with and even tho it may seam to happen over and over again as soon as you really start to see what is causing it (In Buddhism all suffering comes from want) give time to see your true reality beauty and worth and always be aware of what is beneath you.. trust me in saying you will feel enlightened and happy with your path however curvy :) Where that leads you next is up to you :)

Turn suffering into a reason you observe :- change this current moment whist we all have the chance. Its really working for me. and i have a lot less writing to do :)

(impermanence is real)

 

Peace Love & Music

Namaste 

Rich

Borderless

Is it important to know where you come from?

Does your heritage make you who you are, or who you are supposed to be?

So many things have brought these questions to my mind over the last 12 months. On my passport i’m labeled a UK citizen, and with this document i am allowed to cross imaginary borders, i have rights others in this world don’t have and many i don’t which someone simply born elsewhere will be allowed or restricted depending on what way you look at it.

My own personal barcode i carry and get stamped as a shipping consignment does in transit, recording my movement between these imaginary borders, all information on it referring to my original birth certificate.

One day old and i get a certificate to label me forever until i get to my final death certificate which certifies me to be taken out of the system.

I was born in South Wales UK, the national anthem translates to

“The land of my farther the land of my choice the land where the poets and minstrels rejoice”.

What choice did i have exactly??….

But anyway… the emblematic welsh leaks, minors hat, davy lamps and rugby along with a million other emblems of what welsh is, have been systematically endorsed to be who and what i am. Making me morally stronger than the English, Less cold hearted than the Scottish, and all i seam to encounter when i meet an Irish man is whose nationality can drink an obscene amount of beer until either one collapse’s in a paralytic state.

All of these things i carry like my passport is my accent, i only have to open my mouth to a non welsh person and these are the things inevitably stereotyped as who i am.

When i reply, i actually hate rugby i’ve never eaten a leak in my life and no ive never had sex with a sheep and no im sorry i cant speak welsh (yes it does sound like we got a phlegm stuck in out throat doesn’t it!) people think im….well not quite crazy, but at first in there mind ask the question of “Well…who are you then” Now i love welsh people and i love how beautiful the landscape is and the amazing characters it holds, how dynamic it can be when i see the welsh hills, when heading over the severn bridge into wales i feel proud. I feel i’m home and i feel an attachment i don’t have anywhere else. But not because of any of the above simply as my family is here and friends, the accent falls easily on my ears and the tap water is captured in local reservoirs supplied fresh clean and cold. But if i was actually just born outside of the UK all of these things would be as alien to me as Tokyo would be and my stereotypical attributes would be completely different.

I would have a new starting certificate and different rights to go with it.

All of these things we already know, how ones environment influences even dictates someone, which brings me back to my questions, ones i have answered by believing my past is simply just nice to know, family trees being able to be followed back centuries knowing the names of great great great great grandparents, but unless i physically meet them face to face or at least know of there full life story (and moral of) i’m sorry family bloodline… i thank you that i’m here as a result of your actions 300 years ago but you don’t really make me who i am as a person. (but cheers for the genetics)

There are many accounts in history where airs to bloodlines have decided to disagree with who they are literally born to be, born to be the rightful this, or queen of that, air to the family business or simply just to carry on this heritage in the form of a name. Many of which go onto be become strong independent people creating amazing things for themselves. Legend has it Buddha was air to a king and all its comforts, and it was only by changing his planed destiny and left these apparent rights behind that he was able to reach his enlightenment.

So ok where am i going with all this? Im just starting to see wether in myself or in national media its these principles of ‘ones rights obtained simply by being born’ combined with your geographic location are then woven into your fabric of your identity is the reason this world is in the state that it is. Its one thing to be proud of your past to be proud of where you were born or grew up to be proud of where your parents taught you right from wrong and to love the old pathways you used to ride your bike with your friends.

Proud is fine, and very different from the word patriotic. The definition for patriot is

“one who supports and defends ones country”

The word defends is the problem. If someone breaks into your home and is a threat to you and you hit them or injure them its you who can get into trouble!…Hang on??? Was i not just being a patriot to my home and family?

The word patriot is so misused today. It brings people together in mass numbers to defend something as a ‘collective’ without the actual average collective understandings or opinions, people just love to follow suit. From government misdirection leading to illegal wars in other counties to corporate sponsorships resulting in patriotic riots and vandalism over a football game or some other non “real” thing. Our society supports these social warfares of “us people born here are better that you lot born over there” the idea of this is ridiculous to me when you strip away the interwoven social stereotypes we are all just enforced to believe from the day we are born.

Even the idea of me literally being welsh is foolish, my ancestors going back 1000s of years didn’t grow up here! they migrated from ancient Babylonian societies and moved with continental shift, my great grandfather x 100 was never even aware of this land i call home today. Celts, Nomadic, Romans, are just older Wales England’s and Scotland’s and before that these guys shared a home, until one day someone got patriotic about his little bit and the ideology of mass patriotism had the opposite effect, and simply divided people more than bringing together.

I am simply me, a world citizen and proud of it. I wish that one day the word Patriot will be used in its correct definition by the now 7 billion people on this earth…. to be a true patriot of the earth,

Patriot - one who supports and defends ones …. WORLD!

(as this is our only true home)


Moon x

How I Tick

Who and what we are will always be the great philosophical question that will always be a mystery. Even if we knew why we existed would it make how we work less confusing? We are the only animal to have written text, cook food, fly to space, take romantic walks feeling love, to arguing with others feeling anger over misunderstanding and not just survival. We have anticipation for the future and memories of our past, all these things make us human. But even if a god showed up and said I made you or aliens showed up and said we put you here or simply in the infinite time of space in infinity anything is possible with the same principle of if I gave a chimp a typewriter and a infinite amount of time he would eventually write a novel even if he did not know what it was himself. We simply did just evolve from single cells. But regardless of those questions why is it we find in our lives we make the decisions we do? Why do some people want to be in control and others let “fate” guide them. Why do some believe to follow there heart just as much if not more so than the mind? To me following your heart is almost like conversing with an old friend I seam to trust my heart. But listening to your mind is much trickier. There is so much going on in it it’s hard to see what is really what you think or just our brains responses to it’s input. Take the simple task of walking, the brain does this simply by predictions. It predicts without you knowing by the feel of the surface to the look of the terrain. Every step your brain predicts within cm of where your foot will land, I’m sure we all know the feeling of mis judging a step on a stairs or misjudge where a curb is and instantly we perceive something as wrong resulting in whatever higher level thought being placed aside ( say speaking) and for that instant until we can put our world back into the state of underlying prediction can we then attend to how we see the more important things we have to think about. What makes us human is this prediction process, this process of constant subconscious observation / prediction. If I say to you imagine your opening your front door. You put the key in you know exactly how to turn it, the pressure of the door handle the weight of the door, the sound it makes, how high to raise your foot over the frame. The list is endless but if I changed one thing without you knowing like the weight of the door, when you push it you would use to much force and instantly you would feel “something is wrong here” But if I gave you a new door, one you had never seen before you would not have these feelings the door would be new and no predictions could be made, only general rules like how to use a door handle ect.. My ex girlfriend noticed that when I get out of the shower I dry myself in pretty much the exact same way every time. Next time you get out of a shower see if you notice if you do the same, if you do also, try and change it! You will if you concentrate you will overrule the subconscious but as soon as you forget you will be straight back into your movements. We are told our brains have so many different areas one for sight one for hearing one for taste another for emotion and many more. We can these days place a head in a MRI and ask a person to think of a dog or a memory or to preform maths equations and we can pin point where in the brain blood flow increases and electrical activity accumulates but still to me this is not explaining how the brain works, there is no divided Borders in the brain like in the text books different colours and regions, it’s a society of interconnected synapses. One simple idea of connection between two points just repeated millions of times. As an engineer in a recording studio I would often be asked the question of how I knew what every button switch and fader controls on the big mixing desks I used. But like the brain they were just looking at the big thing which is scary! But as I explained to them its just repeated simple connections duplicated many times, so if I understand this small area I already know how the rest works it’s just the same repeated. That doesn’t mean I use them all the same. A signal comes in to say channel one and will leave channel one passing though various controls or levels I have available, a different signal comes in on channel 2 same controls as channel one but I can make it sound very different and so it goes over and over until I have 30 channels all now giving my a combined output a song being the sum of it’s parts. This is how I’ve always thought our minds worked. Its not our brains actually think differently in different parts of our brains the fundamental processes are the same eyes channel 1 hearing ch 2 touch 3 on and on until it makes us. But all information coming in is the same we don’t have vision in our heads or is there sound it’s a dark silent place and all the signals from our eyes ears touch taste all enter the brain as electrical signals so vision is the same as taste as is hearing, and our brains process them all the same way. So it may look like the brain is a very complicated piece of kit but to me it’s just doing the same simple processes but instead of 30 channels we have millions producing the person we see ourself as being. it’s main function ( memorise then predict ) This idea holds true in cases where certain people have crossed areas resulting in them being able to experience taste when looking at certain colours or blind people being able to see the world through sound. Before digital recording when using tape to record sound this crossover was is known as bleed through where one channel can crossover to the next resulting in mixed signals on one channel. And even tho this was tried to be avoided to the channel processing the signal it knows nothing of this crossover and processes simply what is there without caring of how the info or signal got there. The comparison with music and how our minds work has always been of interest to me, all my life I have been obsessed with sounds and music was the closest thing to sound manipulation there is I could do for a living, I love music but by first passion is simply listening to sounds. There are many tricks musicians can play with us that can create certain feelings by the order of notes or chords they play, one of my favourites is the use of 7th chords and placed in the right place in a note sequence will make you want to get back (hear) the root chord immediately after, you predict the chord you want to complete the sound your brain is wanting to hear next.(you already hear the note even if it’s not actually played) Even if you don’t know anything about what chords are actually being played, and if you don’t hear it it leaves you with the sense of something being wrong. The same as when you mis judge your footing. But if it is there’as it is your foot landing correctly where it was predicted, the music will pass and you probably won’t even have noticed it. My point is that even if we are not aware of it most of the time we process the world around us by first of all memorising the normal but then when we encounter these things again make predictions about how things will continue, and only when something changes that did not fit our prediction it causes us to then have to stop until we either re learn what it is or adapt or absorb this new input so we can use it to predict it in the future. There is one more thing to throw into this idea. It’s one of time. None of the above or any sensations can exists without time. You cannot guess a song if I play you one note, same as if I placed a pencil sharpener in your hand and asked you to close your eyes and tell me what it was, but you can’t move your hands! It’s impossible to know, but as soon as you roll it around you will know in seconds what it is, and even if I play you 3 notes of a song you will be able to match the sequence over time and name the song. It’s this input over time that gives you the answer. Music touch, vision, taste all need input over time to make sense of what it is your trying to perceive as real. So if this is true for our sensory perception if as I said all the brain if fundamentally the same processor but repeated many times (memorise /predict) is this not true of what we call higher level activity. Recently it’s seemed to be exactly the same for me but instead of catching myself in the milliseconds of loss of control whilst mis judging my footing, I’ve needed much more time to get my predictions back on track but not the physical place to put my foot to stop me falling but where to place my heart (this friend I trust) and where after 6 months of constant uncertainty in my life (basically the falling sensation not really allowing myself to be able to think of anything else until I’m safe) that during that time I had no clue, all my predictions turned out to be wrong and having to re-learn old memories that gave me those predictions have been very difficult for me. But now I finally feel as tho my foot is steady again and I can now think of other things. It’s the same as the subconscious way of working exactly the same I think in fact but the only variable is how long it takes to get your predictions back to where you feel safe.

ZEITGEIST: MOVING FORWARD : MY THOUGHTS

Regardless of if you think the facts are the ultimate truth, dreams or wild misrepresentation, in any of the Zeitgeist films the point to them is extra knowledge.

Opinion from a view point that you may not be accustomed to. But as in most cases with most persecution towards new views & theories the problem lies not with what is being said (the new information) but with the fact that information causes the persecutor to have to reflect his own beliefs (question himself) which in humans is very hard to do when you believe you are Mr Smith for eg, and all the attributes you believe to be you have to be questioned.

I personally think the Zeitgeist movies along with freedom of debate via online media have done great things, I see many people now asking themselves questions and making changes in there life knowing that “there life” is for them to decide (on info they receive and weigh up themselves) and not for a society or more so a inefficient economy to dictate.

So if you believe this information or not, thats not the point at all, the point is it allows a door to reflect on the normal (or average) perspective and then allows the individual person to decide where to place there next step. This Is the moving forward part. By believing only what we once knew will take us “nowhere”.

Galileo invented an optical device to allow us to see the world differently, through it we found we are not the centre of the universe. (People didn’t like this much especially the church) but hundreds of years later we accept it as scientific truth. Our world is based on these scientific truths but without questioning what you think is true, sometimes the real truth is impossible to see.

Im outside of that box and im happy to look at any and all information there is no good and bad info its all just information. But the only person who can answer your questions is yourself.

One thing i will say about facts i think social debate / online viral opinions can be taken out of context same as main stream media. And to class anything as FACT is insane, society is simply to complex to treat as a scientific observation such as earths position revolving around the sun, and therefore predicting future position with math. Society will simply never be that way because the human self can not be described by math. (at least not if people are free to choose and not be enslaved to a system based on oppression and financial gain)

We have to look at society with our gut instincts of what is right and wrong. Scientific fact will make new technologies and will prevent diseases but it will never be able to describe what a gut feeling is,

So all i can say is try and use your unexplainable you to feel what you think is right for us all, but first find whats right for yourself.

http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/

http://www.zeitgeistmovingforward.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=4Z9WVZddH9w (direct film link)

The Mirror Lake Paradox

The saying ‘go take a good long look at yourself in the mirror’ may have more potential repercussions as one would first imagine..

I am one of those “worriers” in this world, one of those who has to question everything, I mean everything! Not just the philosophical but I tend to live out situations in my head trying to comprehend every possible outcome even before I actually live them out. Afterward I compare my imaginary hypothesis with the actual real event, trying to draw a conclution. Was I right?, what did they mean? What would of happened if?…

This covers most of my daily activites even if I’m consciously aware of these tests or not. I then find that unlike a tidy or organized person who deals with results as they come in a sequential order with efficient progression. I tend to hold these outcomes on mental post it notes stuck everywhere and scraps of paper inside my head leading to a monthly needed sort out. Rather regretfully this ‘sort out’ always seams to happen when the natural process of sleep should be upon me.
One night it will start, instead of retiring to be overcome with the Disney portrayed sleep where as your head hits the pillow the sand man sprinkles you with sleep dust and you instantly transported to the land of nod..
No the more realistic occurrence is a running conscious and self reflecting internal commentary that however hard I try I find impossible to silence, audibly with the incomprehension of listening to horse racing commentary or a east end london car auction! What I mean is I understand some words, some idears rise above others while some seamed to be deafened but are most certainly as important.. My body lies in darkness in silence with my eye lids closed on the windows of my life but still the voice inside me will not rest.
Not only will it not rest but seams more efficient than at the pinnacle of daytime alertness after 4 cups of coffee. It seams to be able to process these sticky notes ive been saving up not only on a practical level but also on an emperthetical one. With flashes of imaginary colour in my mind reflecting maybe an emotion or feeling I have regarding a person or sight I’ve seen. Being now able to understand what actually it was that happened and it’s meaning. I find myself looking into the mirror of past events but now able to see things from a different camera, now making things I inittionally missed in the scene obvious and in which case a lot of the time tends to end up the most important aspect.

A few weeks ago myself and a good friend were watching over the classic Back to the Future movies (some of my favourite films). During these movie the Doc tells Marty over and over not to run into his older or future self as it will create a time paradox that could destroy the core foundation of the space time continuum and potentially destroy the universe..Now even though time travel is not yet possible observing where quantum mechanics is now taking us with realistically multiple levels of dimensions on the sub atomic scale. Linear time travel to me seams less and less possible due to the universe being a multiple dimensional unpredictable network of plank lenth vibrating strings of energy, harmoniously intermingling and reacting and subsequently being the building blocks for everything! It is improbable that I can hop in a time machine and pop back and find myself in yesterday. But to look in a mirror is pretty much a similar thing in my mind. As it’s a reflection of the past what your seeing may seam instant, but the time light hits your face travels to the mirror, bounces back hits your eye, is covertted into electrical impulses then processes by your brain and you respond takes time..its a past self image. So are my sleepless nights this same process but just on another scale of time, my mirror images inside my mind adding up multiple situations or reflections to give myself the answer, the image I’m looking for? I think it is.

In the case of my life though I have found this process of self reflection enlightening! The daily activity of asking oneself who you are? what you believe? who’s right? who’s wrong in the world ? Who do I trust? Why does it work? Who said I can’t ? Questions upon questions that after enough questioning gives you this overwhelming sense of arrogance when you reach the point where not only do you question but you start to dictate your new profound insight, as surly your right! Whether it’s about science or religion, politics, music or fashion, these questions we all ask ourselves inevitably determine what bracket we fit into, who we are in the world. Every thought you have ever had has led you to what your doing right now, they govern your ones self.


To me even though opinions become so strong that unfortunately these pigeon holes have dictated wars throughout man kinds existence, it has also given us the beauty of life, diversity of art and music, lyrics and poetry, fashion and creativity, our understanding of the scientific world is truly unbelievable compared to only 400 years ago where mankind lived in a world dictated by myth and superstition. Asking why changed that, and science was born.

There are certain things science can explain but the physical world produces without reason what I think can be the true paradox of the Back to the Future don’t run into yourself predicament.

All musicians reading this will know what feedback is, I’m not talking about customer feedback of how something has preformed, I’m talking about when a microphone the device used to capture the sound and turn it into an electrical signal, gets to close to its own amplified sound from a loudspeaker. What happens is total devastation of the original sound normally resulting in a earsplitting non musical or vocal sound that makes most people duck for instinctive covering of the ears. What your hearing is the speaker re-speaking the same signal over and over, it’s self reflection until it destroys itself..

(Just an interesting comparison to the above microphone and loudspeaker mechanical processes is that this is literally how our ears being a microphone and our voice box being the loudspeaker physically work. Ears capture vibration and convert into electrical signals, our voice box take electrical signal from our brain and transduce those into physical vibration which propagates as sounds waves)

Feedback has been used in many rock and roll genres of music as a contrasting sound to the harmony of the melody, Jimmy Hendrix being one of the best in my mind exploring that contrast (revealing the confusion but also depth of the overall sound). This is what feedback can create in an electrical circuit, I ask the question then, what is our brains?

Is it not millions of synapses connected through electrical impulses? I would think it is perfectly plausible that feedback ( the repeating of signals / thoughts over and over and over) is inevitable, resulting in sleepless nights yes! but also resulting in our opinions we speak the next day.

So ok if your still following me on this blog well done as tonight has been one of those nights for me and this being my release to many things I’m currently thinking about. But the observation of how my mind has been trying to process these thought I have also found to be as revealing as the problems themselves.

There are many things in nature which I think support this destruction of oneself by getting to close to it’s roots. Biologically I can see this in inbreeding for example where the offspring becomes subjectively weaker, mad cow disease resulting from eating feed made from cow brains.

So my point to all this is I’m starting to see that self reflection as in the harmonious sounds of Hendrix can be a great thing, it gives us identity it gives us belief, but don’t go too far! There is a threshold one of which I fear I have crossed over in the past which resulted in nothing but self destruction and whatever came out of my mouth fed back into my ears only to reenforce my previously spoken words making myself believe what I had said more than I ever should have.

So if all the known universe is made of sub atomic strings and these vibrate within us all, are they the reason the vibrating string of a piano or guitar resonates so profoundly inside us?, giving rise to memories and perfect recall of past lived emotion as if we are living it again?. Or the sound of your mothers voices to calm you as you were a child. I believe there must be a relationship between sound vibrations and whatever is the fundamental vibrating building blocks inside my mind. And if this is the case the process in which our minds work must work on the same physical processes we now understand thanks to science that exist in the real world.

So this is just my opinion / advise. I’m not dictating as I have done, it’s up to all of you to decide what ‘Reflection’ means to you when you stare at yourself in the mirror. But to me don’t look for too long! Learn what you need to, then turn away, don’t become addicted to looking, as if you look too far you might not like what you will see or regret that the time was not better spent with people you love, who I can defiantly tell you are the best feedback / reflection you will ever have you just have to be prepared to listen ..



Moon x


Monkey Bars

As a child we are shown to cherish things around us, to take care and to keep things in good condition so we may use them again tomorrow. But if like me its a hard lesson to learn as new things always come along that we inevitably want to replace what we had, from new toys and bikes with more gears from 10p mix-ups to stealing your mams hair lacquer to go to the local youth club, simple thing is things change and as a young person growing up we take these changes in our stride, always chasing the day we will be that little bit older and looked upon as a more valuable player in the crazy game.

The analogy of a game is a good one, as we all know to win most games sacrifice is a key element in the process of winning. Chess is one of those games where to win you have to know from the very beginning you will have to let some of your attacking pieces be sacrificed in order to obtain the winning check mate position.

In life tho the pieces we are more than happy to lose when we are younger become more and more precious as we see the overall amount becoming less and less, so we lose the ability to take the chances and end up playing a much more safer game. No longer do we aim to move forward with every move regardless, but we become content by playing safe and staying still.

In real life i compare this to any point in a life where responsibility takes its foot hold, normally the time we leave the bubble of higher education, thrown out into the world with what pieces we have left to start a new game.

Now i cant speak for everyone but unbeknown to myself even tho i thought i was still playing hard and taking the risks to win, what i think i really did was play the game of deception..not to my opponents but to myself. To be apparently moving forward but realistically to be keeping a close hand never allowing myself to attack or be attacked, keeping what i had for as long as i could, the exact opposite to the child who was never scared to just go for it!

Just to let go, even tho the lesson has been there from the very start it has been one of the most hardest lessons i think ive ever had to learn. There are so many things we have to learn to let go, whether it be situations, things, memories, people, I now see there comes a point where the things or the person has changed to the extent that it becomes absolutely necessary to just let go of the relationship / friendship or whatever it is we have clung onto in order for both to be able to move forward with there own life path.

But the hardest thing to let go of above all things is….     ….Yourself.

To be able to allow yourself to make the uncertain moves and to realize that without what you are sacrificing/leaving you would not be where you are now in the game.

Yes it hurts! But to start to resent the people/situations  who/what have inevitably made you who you are is self detrimental, and eventually it hurts much more just hanging on.

I am currently looking forward to a new chapter, i have said these exact same words 15 months ago, but then i was not truly happy to let the past go, so really i just sneaked a peek at the future game but couldn’t play. Now i can.

And as in a quote i read recently by unknown person, and to sum it up in the child’s mind who i inevitably trust more than the corrupted adult one by the way!

“Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.”

Rich xxx

Bipolar Pirates

Following on from my last blog about how “life experienced” (per second) in today’s changing society follows Moores Law just as much as technology is doing so in my opinion.

(môrz lâ) (n.) The observation made in 1965 by Gordon Moore, co-founder of Intel, that the number of transistors per square inch on integrated circuits had doubled every year since the integrated circuit was invented. Moore predicted that this trend would continue for the foreseeable future. In subsequent years, the pace slowed down a bit, but data density has doubled approximately every 18 months, and this is the current definition of Moore’s Law, which Moore himself has blessed. Most experts, including Moore himself, expect Moore’s Law to hold for at least another two decades.

If you replace the words (transistors) and (integrated circuits) with (actions per day) and (society integration) I’m sure you will see the same pattern of these actions increasing over time.

So what?

Well if you believe as i do in Darwinian evolution you understand that for nature to adapt to its surroundings takes thousands of years, millions even. So how are we meant to evolve when life now is unrecognizable from only 10 years ago?

Here is what happened to me…the following section is taken from my diary 3 years ago at the time i was recently told i was Bipolar by a nurse at a Bipolar meeting i attended after someone mentioned to me i ticked the boxes pretty well. I wont lie being told this scared the shit out of me! with the prospect of having to take drugs to stabilize my moods??? Not only to suppress me feeling bad but my biggest fear was it would also suppress my Ups the time i write music the time i love to be alive the time i think, would i have to lose this to become “normal” not in my book, but anyways here is what i wrote then.

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there are a lot of things about myself i am proud of and many things i am not, like everyone i guess but is it me? or is it my illness…? Unknown to most people around me i suffer from Bipolar a condition that rules my life everyday. Its basic explanation is that i cycle between moods “highs” and “lows” almost as you cycle from sleep to awake, and even tho the highs and lows last longer than your average 8 hours sleep sometimes for weeks, but the cross over can feel just as quick as someone waking you up with a cold bucket of water thrown in your face. I am now 25 and have only now been tagged with Bipolar within the last 12 months following some actions last Christmas that made me want to seek help, as it was the first time in my life i felt i was out of control, basically my low period hitting a place i have never experienced.

I have always felt different to others even as a child, and never even thought of bipolar? i didn’t even know what it was until 12 months ago. But since knowing my life has been better in some aspects, but so much worse in others. One of the hardest things i have had to come to terms with is that looking back on my life i now see the reasons behind some of my actions, extreme actions! which in a way helps me to justify what i did, but also on the other hand i have to realize consequences in my life was being controlled by a illness, and a condition i have no real control over, so in other words “Have i lived any of my life myself”? Its 04:45am and i have work in the morning, but something just woke me up and told me i have to write something down? I have no idea what? just write it! I almost feel as i should write a letter to myself to read when im not feeling this way, and cant / dont want to get out of bed. Or even a msg. to myself when im feeling really high! funny tho if i could write something to either one it would be “Dont do anything stupid!” But i guess thats the problem, how do i determine what stupid is, when im low stupid can mean thinking of ways to to mentally beat myself up, hating myself, hating even having to wake up at all, devising ways to avoid all social interaction whatsoever regardless if im hurting peoples feelings as long as i dont have to do it! or stupid can mean spending £400 on a bottle of wine on a night out, staying in hotels drink drugs, 100% confident in any action, a longtime girlfriend at home not knowing anything who i had just helped move into university, while also running my business successfully. This was 5 years ago but at the time i just thought thats how life was supposed to be. But Now i understand it being a cycle of mania lasting a few weeks. The only way i can explain the difference between these 2 sides would be consequence. On one hand every action even the smallest is going to cause some unwanted circumstance, blame or hurt. Whilst the other is like being in a world where anything is possible with no blame, no limits… just whatever is here and now is the only thing thats needs to be dealt with anything else can wait its turn for me.

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This was my self refection forced and molded into the Bipolar box i had been given, i mean a qualified nurse had told me after taking a test….. i had to believe it.

I started to speak to others with it most on the dreaded “Meds” that i was so against but the more i thought i was bipolar then the more i became bipolar.

3 years later i can positively say im not bipolar! and i never was! Now im not saying before i make my point Bipolar disorder dose not exist in many cases where there really is chemical imbalances within the brain that physically effect the way our minds works then yes, shout it from the rooftops Im Bipolar and i know why! But Bipolar is also an easy diagnosis for someone who is confused, growing up in an ever changing world with 600 friends on face book trying to achieve there goals falling in love all these things that in the past they had to “just get on with it” but now we look for answers all the time and headlines like this make me sick to read

Rates of Bipolar Diagnosis in Youth Rapidly Climbing, Treatment Patterns Similar to Adults

NIMH Perspective on Diagnosing and Treating Bipolar Disorder in Children

The number of visits to a doctor’s office that resulted in a diagnosis of bipolar disorder in children and adolescents has increased by 40 times over the last decade, reported researchers funded in part by the National Institutes of Health (NIH). Over the same time period, the number of visits by adults resulting in a bipolar disorder diagnosis almost doubled. The cause of these increases is unclear. Medication prescription patterns for the two groups were similar. The study was published in the September 2007 issue of the Archives of General Psychiatry.

40 times increase in 10 years! sounds like something happened in the last 10 years than 40% of people were suddenly born Bipolar! It Astonishes me the amount of people who are Bipolar now, where was all the Bipolar people 50 years ago? go ask your gran if she knows what it is! I’m sure if like my nan she will assume the worst and think its some sexual innuendo. But the point is this being confused in this life is totally acceptable considering the ground we stand on moves so quickly and in ever changing directions. I was lucky enough not to get caught in the trap and went to see different life outside of my so called safe place of home and it is because of this i can now really see who i am in this world.

Just to make this point slightly more visual regretfully most of us have experienced a loss of a loved one at times in our lives, its an invisible pain which leaves no cuts or bruises on our skin, but it does in out minds, the brain may not feel pain as we understand the word, but it hurts and needs time to repair and to work again efficiently after such an event. My diagnosis was simply a bruised mind in need of time to repair.

So ok great you now know some blokes view on the last few years of his life and how he feels about the increase of bipolar diagnosis in the last 10 years and why he thinks we simply aren’t evolving fast enough to be able to cope efficiently all of the time.

The only true way of anyone being able to cope efficiently all the time is to have a bit of inside info, to know what is coming and to prepare as much as possible for what would normally be a blind attack. Pirates knew this well. We often see the pictures of pirates waring an eye patch but not many know the reason why?

The reason was to keep one eye in darkness while the other was used in light, and upon a surprise attack when rushing below deck to load the cannons they would flip up there patch allowing the eye kept in darkness to see in the dark, to work efficiently while th light eye would be blinded after coming out of direct sunlight. Pretty clever i thought to use your 2 eyes for different light situations be be as efficient as possible in an instantly changing world. We unfortunately now have a world where other things change apart from the level of light but the principle is the same, just know as our eyes need time to adjust to light so do our minds to life.

Moon x

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Rubbing Sticks vs E=mc2

I have never attempted to Blog any of my thoughts before, mainly down to laziness i guess but over the last few months after being away in Thailand and pretty much detached from the western world (or at least the things we take for granted) since coming back i cant help but wonder if society (as Brian Cox stated as probability the biggest wonder of the solar system) is doing right with the amount of technology we not only use but now rely on everyday without consciously even knowing.

A simple comparison of 3 lives or generations,

My father born in 1951 had a normalish upbringing, his 10 year old mind revolving around characters beamed from the states over the tube, Davy Crockett, Rocket ships to space, and some  British entertainment bill and ben and muffin the mule, but regardless my dads mind must have been full of wonder of the future what man will eventually be able to make and accomplish, and although since then technology has infused into his life, the concepts and ways of thinking he once thought of as a child have not only succeeded we use and live with them everyday, from the internet to mobiles to the cpu in our cars remapping fuel efficiency, to following astronauts on twitter and a billion other things that did not exist 50 years ago. A funny sub point to this is hes now totally obsessed with ebay selling. He sells old bits and bobs from the family shop which has now been running for over 100 years, so upstairs covered in dust are old electric motors for model train sets to sex pistol denim patches, kite handles and model cars, the funny thing to point out which amazes my Dad is that hardly any of it is bought from UK residents, hes sending this stuff to Russia, Sweden, Italy, Japan now why is this? there probably are many reasons but a simple one for me is that they want a bit of there youth back they want a tiny slice of the days gone by when life was not governed by MHz and Ram. I will probably do the same in time when we will look back on silocon processers like my Dad does on gears and electric motors, they are one and the same thing really a device which does our work for us or makes life easier. And why not the UK? well a recent survey stated that less than 30%  of over fifty’s are “online” with 85% of 29 to 45 year olds being active users. but the rest of Europe have a much healthier over 50s online network.

So where am i going with this?

My life being involved in music has not only seen the commercial side of the technology tsunami come crashing over us in the last 10 years but ive also heard it, even the majority of music we hear today is made with technology for technology. By that i mean Beethoven wrote in large halls where the reverb would carry and wash over the live auditorium with the high ceilings helping to create the actual sound he wanted, stadium rock happened cos the sound in most football stadiums is actually quite bad for music reproduction so bands like U2 use that characteristic and play to it, large stadium rock just wont really cut it in the Australian outback, where aboriginal tribal percussion need no electric to carry its sounds for miles. Point is music is made for its surroundings and now is made to sit on an ipod, and mixed in such detail to be reproduced in your designer headphones with noise cancellation to cut out the rest of the world. And altho yes i do own these headphones and love my iphone as a music producer i find it very sad. you go watch some of these bands live and end up walking out due to it not being what our expectations expect due to technology doing the work for us and not being able to listen to the soul of musicians in the first place. its covered up with so much shit we fall in love with something that never existed, this is also a major reason why i stopped recording as i was required to be the “fixer” of all mistakes, Not the reason i wanted to become a producer!

But weather we look at its influence on music or its influence on society to me its one and the same thing where music is being made to suit technology i see ourselves being molded everyday and the problem is it becomes a drug, Myself and a friend actually sat there steaming on our ipad a live Keynote from apple of there new software updates thinking its going to make our lives better! well its not, as when i was in Thailand with no tv limited internet, and only people who speak different languages, thats what made my life better, human honest communication face to face, and realizing we are all actally amazing individuals not just a facebook page we can click like on.

Now this may come across as an anti technology rant, but i can assure you it is not, i love it and reading the things scientists are developing these days is astonishing, and the day i can travel the world waring contact lenses that display subtitles as people speak to me!!!!….. ill be in line waiting :-)

Albert Einsteins laws say the faster we approach the speed of light the slower our time relative to a non moving object becomes. Now this is talking about space and time, but what about societys time line, by that i mean how fast we can achieve things today that even a few years ago took a while and even earlier took maybe months. Posting a letter vs an email, making a phone call on our iphone or walking to a phone box, or even more on the same line sending telegrams. We now can achieve so much in one day that to my grandfather might have taking him a month.

Im 27 years old and to some people have achieved a lot but to other have achieved nothing really, im not a child prodigy even tho i would have like to have been! i had no profound talent apart from musical interest growing up, and in the last few years i have just been plane hopping seeing as much of the world as i possibly can basically being a bum in the working 9-5 society. Could i have had this life in my fathers day? no way id probably have way to much to do than gallivant about questioning life and meaning. Im defiantly not the first to do it and am pretty sure i wont be the last, but to achieve what i have or have not done so far in my dads day i would be 50 by now in my granddads day maybe 70, and yes before you say dont be so stupid morals and life was different there was wars going on and survival was utmost on the agenda not recording music and seeing the world i totally get that! im just saying if i could relive my life then my life would be constantly filled by the time it takes us humans to do things rather than technology to help do it for us (time makes things personal and interesting) To me it already makes life quite boring just by tapping a facebook app i know how the god knows how many 100s of my friends are doing today, i cant even remember speaking to half of them some from school i actually disliked! We need to be very careful not to let the wave drown us we need to see we are approaching the speed of light relatively fast and instead as Einstein proved time slows down, our lives are speeding up and what will the next generation be like?

My friend had a baby boy 2 weeks ago, the first time i seen him he was in his cot fresh to the world with an iphone nearby streaming music to him over wifi , i could not really believe this image and just could not stop to wonder what he will see in the next 27 years what will he be buying on ebay when hes 60 to remind him of a a past which is all of our current futures, and by the time hes 30 he would have done and known things that would have taken a life of 200 years to experience in the past. 

But my point i guess is a simple not profound one, we should all make time in our lifes to rub sticks to go back to a time when instant fire was a dream, to do the graft work and get the meaning back of what we all are as a society, to ask questions asked before and work them out for meaning not just cos you can Google it.

Moon x